After my conversation wtih my gal friends today, I felt so drained, so tired coz they're so negative. Guys, do u know that u have build�a terrible reputation for yourself ? Women find it so hard to trust u! My conversation with gals always revolve around how guys r cheating on their gfs .I feel so disappointed. I mean, certainly there r honest,faithful, really great guys out there right? So why am I not meeting there yet? I know there r guy out there who think the same - that girls r doing a great job on cheating their bfs as well...but for me, I can really guarantee I will stay faithful to my husband as long as I love him. There is no way I will split my heart into 2.
I just think that maybe it's time my gal friends stop telling me how bad guys r or how upset/uncertain they r in their r/s.
God, just really wish, pple can understand me. Being single is OKAY - I'm really starting to believe in this statement. There's nothing wrong if I'm single and virgin at 25.
�I'm really happy with being myself right now, although feeling lonely, just wished there's somebody to hug me and tell me everything's gonna be okay.
We r really just being more than physical beings. Can we ever look beyond this fact?!
Lots of cleaning and eating and making a fire right now......then some booze and wii with allison!
so I went on a walk this afternoon by myself and it was very pleasent nice california day :) I was thinking about his year that has just passed compared to last year and what i want for the coming year 2010.....so what i decided is that last year 2008 was very emotional a lot of figuring out who i am what I like and just jumping into a new life one of my own. this year has truly been a year of firsts.....the first time i truly dated, the first time I slept with another man, the first time I got laid off, the first time I saw someone die, the first time I truly had an amazing time while in virginia, the first time I felt my age, the first time having a personal medical problem, the first time I really appreciated the life I've made for myself, the first time I had a true crush in a very very long time, the first time I tried online dating, the first time I didn't celebreate my birthday, the first time I read a series of novels, the first time I got to see my family more than once per year, the first time I saw my dad really really happy, the first time I was truly happy for someone else......I think i can go on and on so hope next year will be more firsts and maybe seconds!! hahaha! Merry Christmas to everyone!!
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How do you know who it is your suppose to choose? Because I find them to be both equally good people, with good intentions. I can't seem to stop my head from spinning.</3